day forty: alone?

when did it become a sin to be

alone?

who decided that it would be normal to not be

alone?

why do we always have to be

surrounded?

why are we afraid of

aloneness?

because in that aloneness there is no one

to protect you from you.

you are alone

with yourself

and you cannot be trusted

not to think

think deeper than

petty conversation

think on your ideas

about how life works

and why people have dreams

and what your dreams are

and how many dreams you can make come true

and you can turn dreams

into experiences

thats something everyone dreams of

but who can say it?

very few.

while alone

treat yourself

the way you wish for others

to treat you

be polite

and caring

and don't think badly of yourself

ever.

just because you are alone

doesn't mean you are lonely

so when you say

"Table for one, please."

don't say it with a sad frown

or accept the disappointed waiter's

sorrowful glance

say, instead

"i'm treating myself

like no one else

has learned how."

and smile

because you are alone

and it's the most beautiful

and dangerous place

to be.

day thirty-eight: i keep forgetting.

i keep forgetting

that the sky is falling

that the world is crashing

to a hellish end

and that my world

is topsy-turvy

i keep forgetting

because i'm smiling

i'm too busy laughing

to see the sky

to watch the world

to try to right-side-up my life

because when i laugh

when i really laugh

my eyes almost close completely

and that makes it hard

to see what's going wrong

with

my

life.

i keep forgetting

that even though things aren't perfect,

they really are just fine with me.

day four: laughter.

i hear laughter.

i feel laughter.

i am laughter.

it tumbles out of me

so uncontrollably.

thank you

for sharing your smile.

for sharing your jokes.

for sharing your giggles.

for returning my smile.

i am laughing.

i feel lighter.

i feel like me.

i feel free.

simply free.